this Blog is for me and my life and struggles
- I feel im empty when i dont have anything to do apart from my work , i have 0 hobbies and have no interest in anything else.
- My attention span is very short and i cant read things and watch videos for more than 10 minutes - this issue is not made up now ,i have these emptiness from my childhood i never liked talking to people very much if they cant think like the way i think.
- If somehow i make friends i get bored easily and i start to ignore them like anything.
- i like to do doomscrolling twitter and instagram for hours.
- now even i get bored from doing masturbation, i feel everything has saturated in my life.
to fight this void , im trying to do excersie and run regularly , eating good food , trying to learn something which i dont do in my work, trying to get slowing down things, solo travelling , doing something which im very afraid off.
- i will share more updates here
Updates:
july 17th 2026
- i completed my 2 weeks thailand backpacking trip
- i fucking talked with many girls ,mens around the planet and had some good conversations , some were very deep and some were very shallow. but overall it was great.
- did crazy experiences like island hoping in phi phi islands , snorkeling.
- did many pub crawls.
- walked alone around the city at night.